Effective communication. Consistent effective communication. Specifically in romantic relationships. And specifically when I get upset over something.
I know what you’re thinking.
"But… but… you’re a blogger!"
"But… but… you earn money from writing, from communicating!"
"But… but… I read your blog three times a week!" (Humor me, please.)
Be that as it may, I'm not as an effective communicator as I’d like to be when it comes to romantic relationships.
I have a cycle and it goes a little something like this: I have a disagreement with a guy. I get angry. I shut down. I think not-so-nice things to myself that I’d like to say, but wouldn’t say because, well, it’s not-so-nice. I shut down some more. I get silent. (If I speak, more often than not, it's typically something sarcastic.) I think more not-so-nice things. I give a blank stare instead of responding.
I know, I know... It's bad.
I've gotta learn to do better.
That's the thing about staying in a toxic relationship for so long. You pick up a few unhealthy -- and unhelpful -- habits along the way.
But I'm working on it.
And I'm learning how to make a change. Slowly, but surely...
(So you know: Yes, there's a guy. And, yes, I'll share more info at a later time. Maybe.)