I've ventured out and re-entered the dating scene after going through a dry spell since
Applauds. Air kisses. And high fives all around.
I've been meticulously lining up babysitters for my midweek rendezvous, and believe me, that's no easy task. But it's been worth it for me. Because it's been fun. Really fun.
Those beautiful eyes, that smooth skin, those kissable lips... but enough about me already! There's this one guy...
He's tall (easily 6 feet), good looking (gorgeous caramel skin), hilarious, well-educated, ambitious, and just all around, well, yummy. Definitely my type.
We've been hanging out and trying things out for a few weeks. It's been fun.
And the kisses? Ohmygosh! Passionate. Fireworks. Yummy, delicious, gimme-some-more kind of kisses.
But this single momma followed her intuition when she had the "something's not quite right" feeling. (Proof that growing pains are there for a reason.) And you know the old adage, if something seems too good to be true...
Turns out, he's just a little bit single. Sort of. He's got a girlfriend. Sort of. They've been on a break for quite some time. Sort of.
I have respect for relationships. Even "on a break" ones. And I'm nobody's side chick. Even those with yummy, delicious, gimme-some-more kind of kisses.
But there's a silver lining -- there's always a silver lining. I've come to an epiphany of sorts. See, I've been taking care of Number 1 (myself) and putting Number 1 (myself) first since breaking up with my ex. And it feels good. Very good. Damn good.
When I'm in a relationship, I tend to love hard. Very hard. But the emotional energy that it takes to maintain a relationship is just too much for me right now. After all, my last serious relationship was so so heavy and certainly didn't go so so well. Now I'm just at a point where I want to focus on myself and Aiden.
But I'm enjoying dating. And I'm enjoying my midweek rendezvous. So this single momma is officially dating... again. And totally taking it easy while enjoying Mr. Right Now.
Maybe I'm just scared.
Maybe I'm just smart for finally trusting my "take it slow" instincts.
It's there for a reason, right?
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