Now that these summer classes are over I can breathe. I wanted this summer to go so well for me, but life had other plans for me. I thought I was making my life easier when I hired a sitter. Well she quit, 3 weeks before my summer classes ended. On top of having 2, 6 weeks summer courses, my husband and I signed up for a 10 week commitment to do a program called Family Expections. They give you money for coming every week, and they paid for childcare for our oldest son so I couldn't complain.
I didn't have a back up plan when my sitter quit. We live in Oklahoma and our family lives in Mississippi. I didn't have a back up person I could call to come keep him. I felt stuck. I couldn't complain to my husband, because there really wasn't a point. He had to work. I cried. Many of nights oh and days. I screamed. I was upset and I felt overwhelmed. I asked a what I thought was a close friend to keep him during the 3 days I needed help. She agreed. One week before final she quits, and we are no longer friends. Well great I just went from having 2 people in my support group (hubby and her) to one person.
I had to come to my senses. I realize if I had not gone through the storm I would not be able to taste such victory. I want my education. I need my education. I still have 2 years left in undergrad and 3 years for my masters. I will get to where I want to be in life, one class at time. Having to go through these hard times have made me think long-term. Shoot I'm thinking Ph. D now. I want my kids to know that I love them and they give me the PUSH I need to complete each course. I never would have dreamed I would be a young mommy. But I am. And I am proud.