At the age of 22 I found myself unexpectedly pregnant. Craptastic! Throughout my entire pregnancy, I thought about all the things that I would miss once my baby arrived. I mourned the lost of my social life like crazy. I thought it was the one thing that I would miss the most. Turns out... it's not! I love my Aiden to pieces, but I gotta be honest on this little place and space on the web.
I miss my free time and my "me time" the most.
I'm sure you lovelies can relate to the fact that you never EVER get a time-out or a break from Motherhood. Even when Aiden is napping, my mind is racing with things that I need to do, want to do, forgot to do, will never do...
Gone are the days when I could just sit around on a Saturday afternoon and do absolutely NOTHING. Like, I can't simply sit around and read a magazine to catch up on my "current events" aka celebrity gossip, SLEEP, or watch an entire season of Sex and the City or Law & Order: SVU while eating five gigantic sugar cookies (love 'em!). Nope. Can't do that. Not without explaining all the sex talk, rapes, and cussing to my toddler. And what if I just wanted to get up and go... anywhere? Nope. Can't do that either. Not without a nanny anyway.
All the parenting books and magazines and coaches out there recommend that mommies hire a nanny for reasons just like this one. But I'm a poor grad student, gosh darn-it. I can't afford a nanny!
Most days I'm perfectly fine and feel extremely blessed with my life. But every once in a while, I think about those pre-baby days when I had my free time, my "me-time." These are the days when I get Aiden to bed a half an hour earlier. And I don't feel guilty about it one bit.