All around the blogosphere, people are doing a year in review. But I'm not. Not exactly, anyway. Don't get me wrong, I've had quite a fantabulous year and Mommy Delicious has only made it that much better. Like when I was invited to participate as an audience member of The Nate Show for an ambush makeover. Sweet!
But as 2010 comes to a close and as this NYC single momma thinks of all the things that I've been through, I get shivers -- shivers! -- when I think of this one thing: how I made it through.
As many of you may know, I did not start this year off as a single mom. But I'm happily ending it that way. Ouch! I'll spare you all the lovely details in this post, but for those of you who don't know, you can read this post about me letting go of the image of portraying a perfect family.
But when I think of this post about how things started to come together for Aiden and me, and how we began to settle into our new life and our new family structure, I get super excited.
But these past few months, one thing that has helped me make it through was taking walks. Long walks. I'd strap Aiden in his stroller and just go. Somewhere. Anywhere. Near or far, I'd walk.
Although I am content with my single mom status now, I'm not going to pretend like it has been easy. Because it certainly hasn't. At all.
But long walks have helped me to clear my mind and ponder. On what exactly happened, what went wrong, how I played a part in what went wrong, and how I learned from it all.
I've had to mourn the loss of the image of portraying a perfect family image and mourn the loss of my innocence -- going from that poster "church girl" to being pregnant. With no ring on my fourth finger, left hand.
But that's all right now. Because my Aiden is super delicious. And my life as a single mommy is even more delicious. Just read for yourself.
I've learned to accept my defeats and accept that which I could not change. And I've grown since then. Mentally. Emotionally. Tremendously.
Walks. Long walks.
Sometimes you just gotta get up and get moving.